The After Life of the Party. Fall Out Boy

I feel pretty good. A lot of stress has been lifted off of my shoulders, and I really don't feel like writing too much truthfully, but I feel like it would be a nice use of my time today. I hate when I get all stream of conscious like, because I end up saying absolutely nothing. So perhaps I should make an outline as stupid as that might sound...

1) My life for the past week

2) Michelle's recent bloggings

3) Stupidness

4) Things to come

1) Okay. I have been incredibly stressed for the past week because of midterms. I honestly don't remember doing anything for the past week, aside from studying and being sick. Which was a wonderful surprise, yes, I really needed that on top of everything else. But all is well, because I studied harder than I ever have and I WRECKED my tests. It was amazing, and I'm so proud because it was really the first time that I ever stuck to a schedule, and now I know I can do it again and again.

Other than that, all I've done recently happened last night. Basically, I watched 5 hours of Grey's Anatomy, yes its my new obsession. Shannon has gotten me addicted. Damn her. I wonder if life is really like that past college, and potentially med school. Just killing eachother to make it, and pretty much dealing with wayyyyyy to many hormones. Considering its a TV show, its probably way overhyped, but oh well. Being an adult is going to be interesting.

After, we attended pancake palooza. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING, tastes better than pancakes at 1130 p.m. And then, after free pancakes, FREE bowling. WHAT? I love my school so much. Then after that I went to Rob's room and we had a nice time, however, I began to get frustrated because I've been sick and yucky. Oh well, hopefully I feel much better tonight.

2) Michelle. My god, you don't even know you are my hero. You talk about things so easily. I wish I was as brave as you sometimes. But I have been using my light, and I have now acknowleged that my boyfriend really does like me just the way I am. I don't have to change, and if I want to, its for ME, not for any other fucking critic. I love my body, and I'm proud of what I see when I look in the mirror. Sure, theres room for improvement, but every girl is beautiful just the way they are. If someone doesn't see all the light inside of you, then they don't deserve your time.

3) Okay, what else would this be about in college. For god sakes people control your fucking self! I understand you want to have a good time, but don't go around saying you NEED to drink because you HAVE to have a good time this weekend. WHAT IS WRONG HERE!? I have had great weekends, and I haven't drank in weeks! Come on. Okay well thats all I really have to say here, I'm just incredibly frustrated.

4) Ah, things to come. I have a couple days until break begins. So, tonight is Keri's surprise party that she probably already knows about, which will be fun. Still not feeling completely well, so I'm not sure if I will drink. I may be able to skype with Michelle today which would pretty much make my life. Tomorrow, I plan on relaxing. The rest of week will be spent studying and preparing for my last few midterms. Thursday shall be amazing, since my sister is coming to stay the night, and then drive me home Friday :D

As for now, I shall bid you adieu, because as I said earlier, I'm not even in a writing mood so its amazing I did this much.

Farewell.

Could it last?

Watch you work the room.

Only the Good Die Young.

Two girls in Norwood were struck by a train today. Its so devastating being away from home and being in your own little bubble, and suddenly realizing that there is a whole world out there that you've left behind. I could know those girls. They haven't released the names, but I could know them. And the third girl, she witnessed the whole thing.

My prayers are with them and their families.

I don't feel like writing much more right now...

Favorite.

I thought I would give you some things to listen to, think about, watch, etc.

"How we survive is what makes us who we are."- Survive by Rise Against

"I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."- Albert Einstein

"What do you do? You laugh. I'm not saying I don't cry, but in between, I laugh. And I realize how silly it is to take anything too seriously. Plus, I look forward to a good cry. It feels pretty good."- Sam, Garden State

Favorites

Actor: Matthew Gray Gubler

Actress: Natalie Portman

Alcohol: Rum? Possibly Tequila

Animal: Otter

Apple: Red Delicious

Artist: Claude Monet

Athlete: Natalie Coughlin

Aunt: Judy :D

Baby: Jack was adorable, and still is.

Ball: Snow?

Band: Muse

Beach: Dewey

Beer: Ew, but I guess Bud

Book: Tie, Brothers Karamazov and the Fountainhead

Boys Name: Maxwell

Brand: I'm not very picky.

Candy: Reese's

Car: My sister's Altima

Cartoon: Disney's The Princess and the Frog, currently.

Catalog: None really...

Cereal: Cheerios or Kashi Go Lean

Channel: Fuse is nice, when they lay off the rap.

Church: The Chapel where I work.

City: Philadelphia, but I haven't been anywhere really.

College: Muhlenberg, duh.

Cologne: Um, I guess Ralph Lauren?

Color: That perfect mix of blue and green, like the ocean.

Comedy: Movie? The Hangover, I guess. Comedian, either Dimitri Martin or Ed Bryne.

Costume: My brother was Duff Man once.

Country: I would love to travel to Ireland.

Cousin: Hm.. tough. Michelle, or Megan.

Day: Christmas, or Halloween.

Dinosaur: Sexy Rexy.

Dog: Sandy is a Labradoodle, but I have a soft spot for Pugles.

Electronic: iPod.

Flower: Daisy.

Food: Tough... I love Panera's tomato soup :D

Friend: Michelle, Julia, Kevin.

Fruit: Raspberries.

Game: Solitare.

Girls Name: I can't think of one at the moment...

Hobby: Listening to music and knitting.

Holiday: Christmas/Thanksgiving/Halloween are all amazing.

Ice Cream: Ben and Jerry's Oatmeal Cookie Crunch.

IM Service: Skype I guess?

Insect: Ladybug.

Jewelry: My bracelet from China and the one from Disney World that Michelle gave me.

Job: Chapel Assistant.

Juice: Currently, Cranberry is nice.

Kid: My little sisters and brother.

Lake: The one my family used to visit.

Language: I should say Spanish, but everyone loves the sound of French.

Magazine: Rollingstone.

Mall: King of Prussia is a bit too large, I find myself liking the Lehigh Valley Mall.

Man: Hm... boyfriend?

Meal: Wrap from Subconnection.

Meat: N/A.

Memory: WOW. Tough question. It depends on with whom. With Michelle, I'd say the boardwalk but that would be too obvious. Probably that time before going to Steph's when everyone was calling her wondering where we were, and we were right outside talking in her car. With Julia, taking candid pictures in her room for 3 hours. With Kevin, talking until 7 in the morning (this applies for Janine as well). With Anne, Jenn and Amanda, Kama Sutra. And with Rob, the morning we stayed up until 5 because we wanted to give Matt and Amanda some time alone, even though they were just asleep. We weren't even going out at this point, but it was still one of the greatest nights of my life. And Shannon, definitely the night we chatted in the GQ for hours.

Metal: Hm... Yttrium.

Milk: Chocolate currently.

Month: I'm a big October fan.

Mountain: Blue.

Movie: So many. Probably Moulin Rouge.

Number: Any multiple of 4... except 12.. not sure why.

Occupation: Something interesting, like researching the effects of drugs or music on the brain.

Ocean: I've only ever been to Atlantic, but I'd love to see the Pacific.

Park: The one by my house. I want to go on the swings.

Perfume: Ralph Lauren.

Pet: Sandy :D

Phone: My pantech is nice, and puts up with me constantly dropping it.

Phrase: "The early bird doesn't fall far from the tree." - I believe someone at O'Hara tried to coin this one.

Place: Muhlenberg.

Planet: I so loved Pluto before it was demoted.

Plant: That weird little bush that my parents planted that will never die.

President: None really. Washington I guess. RANDY HELM.

Quote: "Love all. Trust a few. Do wrong to none." - William Shakespeare.

Relative: My sister.

Restaurant: Bucca was very nice.

Rollercoaster: Something at Dorney. Their new one was amazing.

School: O'Hara.

Season: Autumn.

Shampoo: Aussie.

Shape: Trapezoid. A perfect balance of order and disorder.

Shirt: I am a huge fan of tees.

But I guess, I do like my plain black shirt.

Show: Criminal Minds.

Sibling: Aw. Julia. But everyone else is very close.

Smell: Not sure.

Soda: None. I don't care for soda.

Song: Currently, "Talons" by Bloc Party.

Sport: Swimming.

State: PA isn't so bad.

Station: 104.5 or 88.5

Stone: Ruby is my birth stone..

Store: Aeropostale, Heritage.

Street: CHEW!

Subject: I do love English.

Superhero: Superman.

Taste: I'm not sure.

Teacher: DR was probably the best professor I've ever had.

Team: I guess the Wings. I don't like very many sports teams

Tree: The one in my back yard, its a dogwood.

Truck: Um.. none?

Uncle: Mark. He's crazy.

Vacation: Senior Week '09

Vegetable: Broccoli.

Vehicle: Doesn't this apply to car and truck?

Weapon: None.

Weather: Rain is nice, but it makes me depressed. Ironic.

Website: currently, stumbleupon or textsfromlastnight.

Wine: Um, not sure.

Woman: Michelle or Julia.

Word: Love. Imagination.

Year: 2009 was a great one.

Zodiac: Cancer.

Zoo: Philadelphia.

Weightless. All Time Low

Okay. Yesterday was a bad day. I can say it. I was basically raped by my chemistry exam. It was pathetic. Sad part is I KNEW EVERYTHING. I just panicked and everyone agreed there was not enough time. But, God I did terribly. I basically broke down once I left class, and Anne saw me immediately and gave me a big hug and lied to me and said everyone felt the same way (haha even though she actually finished). And then Erik saw and asked if I was okay and then finally Rob. He walked over and tried to make me feel better, and I did because he is amazing.

My Bio lab teacher is awesome because she let everyone take a breather before we started lab and Anne tried to cheer me up by "shaking it out" like we do in yoga. And I actually felt amazing. I loved lab... it was strange.

But basically the point of this is that I am okay with doing terribly. I can make it up. And I will. And I have amazing friends. BAM.

Elaborate Lives. Adam Pascal and Heather Headley

I can't stop listening to Aida. I love it. I really wish I had been a part of it at O'Hara. But anyways, I am burning out fast. Very fast. I just need to stop looking at my damn calendar, but it seems like everything is creeping up on me so fast. The horrible part is that I know I can make it through, but I can't help but freak out about everything. And I hate complaining about everything because its annoying if I do really well. I'm just very stressed, and whenever I wake up in the morning, my heart starts racing because I think of all the things I have to do that day. I just need to learn to take things one at a time. And breathe.

My light is coming this weekend. I'm very glad, maybe it will get me out of this slump.