Life on Mars? David Bowie

I'm totally getting back into the usual flow of life. Thank God. Its about fucking time.
Going to stage crew again! ITS SUPER. Although I do miss when like EVERYONE was on it. Oh well. Who knew Saturdays at school and crappy Kentaco food would be so gooooooood.
Maura is now on crew! YAY!
Today at school was bizarre.
Instead of doing math in math class, we used motion detectors.. and then made pamphlets for Dugan's son's wedding?
Some girl had a kind of breakdown today in William's and just walked out of class. Left all her stuff.
Borusiewicz attacked me with a dead ferret today.. actually 3 sewn together. Weird. She was demonstrating how an aside works and beckoned me to the front of class. As if that wasn't weird enough I had to stand there with my eyes closed while she rummaged through a closet and pulled something out.. Everyone laughed and I heard Dinh yell "Squirrel???" You see I have a fear of squirrels and Dinh thought she pulled a squirrel out of the closet. So like 3 seconds later I feel this furry thing.... and BAM. FERRETS.
And to top that off we watched yet another abortion in Morality Class. Oh God.

I miss the kids.. and Casey.. oye vey.

This is a short post. Listen to Hunky Dory by Bowie.. or the Sweeney Todd Soundtrack.

Ay. Dios mio.

I'm pretty confident that I'm slowing sinking into insanity.
I don't know what to think anymore. Lately, I've been quite.. how do I want to phrase this. Unhappy? Dissatisfied? I don't understand the world. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it either. I really need to sort my thoughts out and I don't know how. I'm afraid that my friends will think I'm seriously overreacting, which is a possibility, or that I'm just insane. I don't get the world, or people's serious lack of respect and acceptance. I don't understand how people can expect so much out of one person. I hate the way I can't figure out exactly what I want to say. I need a mental health day, but I can't take one. Not now. I've seriously broken down alot. I'm not eating right, I can't find balance between schoolwork and everyday life. My days are bleeding together.
I want to see Kim again. But I can't. I don't want to go look for a new one either, it just wouldn't be the same. Everything is getting to me lately. Last night, they predicted snow. I wanted it so bad. I got up in the morning and literally cried. I don't know why. I never truly expected it at all. I'm having one of the worst freakouts ever. The worst part is, nothing can cheer me up long enough. Not Dinh's songs, not my mom's encouragement. I need these next two weeks to be over soon.
I don't know if I should even put this up.



Edit:
Sorry about this. Disregard.

Liar. Taking Back Sunday

Wow. So much has happened in the past week. Julia has lost her 3 best friends, and NONE was her fault. A little while ago, Casey got veryyyy drunk and Julia was worried and told her to slow down. Casey's mother, aka my dad's ex, is now in prison because she hits the bottle a little to hard. Julia was just worried that "like mother like daughter" would happen. So anyway, Casey swung at my sister and Julia pushed her. Then they got over it and we all hung out together. But about a two weeks ago, Casey, Stac, and Sine stopped answering Julia's calls out of the blue. The "JCSS" in their profiles becomes "LHMB," designed to include Alex Miller, rather than my darling sister. So Julia questions what happens and Casey tells her that things just can't stay the same. Julia is confused and texts Stac. Stac doesnt get back to her until the next day in school in which she writes "Im better friends with case so just stop textin me cause im tired of your shit." Ouch.
So last night, Chris Furm calls Julia and tells her that Case, Stac, Sine and Alex came over to Evan's while he was there, asking Chris to call Julia and tell her to come over. Apparently they were going to beat her up. Case was like a sister to Julia. And to me. We met 8 years ago, when my mom dated her dad. Then my dad dated her mom. But right now, I am prepared to rip her still beating heart out of her ass if she even touches my sister. The same with the others. Fucking bitches. Im so angry because Julia has never deserved this. Shes the one who cares the most to tell her best friend what is hard to hear, and she gets hurt. What the fuck? I would die if i lost Julia as a friend, and I am confident that they will come running back to her. If they dont, believe me they are shit. Nothing more than that. Worthless.
So believe me, if any of you even start anything with Julia, it will end bad for you, I promise. I can only hope that you realize what you have done, and are miserable because of it.
Don't think badly of me for saying this either. Im just fucking pissed. I have never seen her a mess. I'm the screwed up moody depressive one, not her.
I can't even imagine how she feels right now. If i lost Roe, Dig or Dinh I am confident that i would die.