Rabbits Are Roadkill on Rt. 37. AFI

^Clearly, I have a ton of respect for the Easter bunny^.
But what else should you expect. The kids left this morning after only one day with us. Fuck. And Jesus was kind enough to send me a visitor this morning...... Gee. Thanks.

This break has been somewhat uneventful.. and therefore relaxing.

Wednesday I went to Scarlett's. What else is new. We played Rock Band and just plain hung out.
Thursday was odd. Julia and I ran to the bank with my father and then went to Widener's caf for lunch with my mother and a friend from work. Then Julia and I went to pick up her friend Bobbie, Jen Davis and Peggie York. I haven't seen the latter two in like, years. It was an odd reunion. All three of them smoked in the backseat while I basically stuck my head out the window. They asked if the smoke bothered me... duh. I explained to them that I had asthma and they exclaimed "Oh my God, we're going to kill her!" Ahh.. Its so strange being so close to my sister and trying to grasp the fact that our crowds are drastically different. The three of her friends tried to convince me to go party with them... I told them I didn't drink or smoke.. or do coke. They said "Oh wow! We're going to turn you bad. You're going to wake up tomorrow with a beer in one hand and a blunt in the other!" Okay. Still waiting for that.
In all seriousness, it wasn't too bad. We went to the mall, and I discovered that Jen and Peggie and I all enjoyed some of the same literature. We ran into Marg, and it turned into a weird St. Mads reunion. But, not really, because as Marg's boyfriend started to walk toward us after we waved, she literally pulled him back and they left.. talk about awkward. Bobbie and Peggie nearly died laughing.
After we went to KOP, Julia and I dropped the three off at Bobbie's house and went to grab dinner at Double Decker. That was fun. We talked about, what else, our lack of love lives. Julia and I have a nice understanding of this. We like different guys, but the same. I have a very precise model in my mind, which usually ends up being completely different than the guy that I fall for. But no worries, I am still looking, haven't seen anything lately that I like. Julia on the other hand is struggling to hold on to a guy who doesn't seem to want to commit. Ugh. Men.
We went home and watched Enchanted. Awesome movie. Happy Ending. What else can two emotional teenage girls ask for?

Friday.
Woke up at 8. Read til 9. Went on my computer for an hour. Read for another 4 hours. By 2, I decided I needed to get out of bed. Got in the shower. Julia was already gone. This is a clear sign that I was not feeling myself. If Julia beats you out the door, something is clearly wrong with you. I went and ran some errands with my mother, who commented on my unusually tired state. I haven't been sleeping great, and naturally my darling mother picked up on it. Great. We went home. By the time Julia got back, it was 5 and Jen Mae was tagging along behind her. We decided to wait until the kids got here from NC (where they were staying with their Aunt) to go to our dad's. First, Julia and Jen and I went to grab dinner. I headed over to Double Decker again, and sadly realized that I was becoming one of those mindless zombies who went to Double D's every night out of convenience. Ew. I was going to need to find something else to eat on Saturday. Ran into Pat Z. Weird. I'm not so sure he recognized me.. or he could have been ignoring me, but I think the former explanation sounds nicer. Ran into Scarlett's brother too.. He lives there. But hey, who am I to talk. I just ate there two nights in a row. Ahhhh... Went home just as the kids arrived, only to leave like 10 minutes later. I went to my dads and then got ready and went (where else?) to Scarlett's. We watched half of Shrooms, and shitty TV horror movie, which also scared the hell out of me. I tried desperately to ignore Alex, for I was pissed at him. But stupid Frenchman, he is impossible to stay mad at. Kevin gave me a strange look, seeming to say "Wow, you suck at aloof-ing." Oh well. He probably has no clue what he did. But I do. And I decided to give him yet another chance. See, giving Alex more rope is always dangerous, because he always seems to hang you with it. Ah well.
Julia picked me up with Jen Mae and some kid Bill in the car. They had come from some party, and were heading back to Jen's. I got home and read before I hit the sack.

Saturday.
Woke up, went out to breakfast with my favorite grandmother. Oh yes. Sarcasm was definitely intended. I hated Julia for leaving me alone to face her. Ugh. Went to my mom's and slept. Alot. Then did my history essay, which I thought was good, but in retrospect I probably should have checked over it rather than just sent it. Had tacos for dinner! YAY for breaking the Double Decker pattern. Divinia and Jimmy came over. We made fun of Divinia for slicing the lettuce PERFECTLY. Haha. Okay, maybe you had to be there. We decided to watch August Rush, which is pretty much my new favorite movie. Jonathan Rhys Meyers.... oh yes. Watched the end of Sound of Music after. In response to Roe's crush on a certain older man, I would like to confess my love for Christopher Plummer's suave character in the movie. When he and Julie Andrews dance at the party, and then later sing "Something Good," my heart crashes in my chest. I'm a sucker ;]

Happy Freaking Easter.
Woke up at 6:40 A.M. to say bye to the kids. Went back to bed at 7ish and just closed my eyes for an hour. After tossing and turning I decided just to get up. And I've basically been sitting here for 3 hours. Only moved to get a shower. So here I am. BAM!




In all seriousness, Happy Easter. Christ is Risen!

Cheated Hearts. Yeah Yeah Yeahs

I miss my Roe. I don't see her anymore. It makes me sad. I need my second mother back. COME BACK TO ME!!!
In other news, I still have no prom date. SHIT. haha. Everyone has one. Oye Vey.
This post is utterly pointless.

Hot in Herre. Nelly

I'm being a loser and listening to the Harry Potter 5 Soundtrack.. the movie group came over last night and we watched it. Naturally I cried when Sirius... well..you know.
This weekend has been boring. Friday couldn't do anything. Saturday morning I woke up at 645 (yay!) to take my SATs. Yep. Nothing like PMSing during a five hour test. Last night I went out to dinner with my mommom (the one that hates Julia and I). Afterward Sarah, Scar, Kevin, Alex and Kelly came over. We watched HP, I cried.
So since Friday, I have been working out. P90x is freaking intense. I can barely walk. Naturally Julia is fine. Partly due to my current mental state, I've been freaking out about my body, but hey.. I really want to get in shape. So yeah.. my mother tells me I'm pretty, but I kinda wanna do something for myself. So no worrying. I'm not going to stop eating and start freak exercising!

Until later.

Always Love. Nada Surf.

Happy day after Valentine's! I hope everyones was full of love.

First off I would just like to express my immense gratitude to all my friends and family for always being there. I LOVE YOU more than anything in the world.

Today we had a retreat. It wasn't as bad as expected. I actually like O'Haras masses, the music is what keeps me entertained. And as long as Rossi doesnt give the homily, I'm good.

JULIA GOT HER LISCENSE.
CASEY IMED HER.
She is freaking out...


Uh, yeah there is nothing to talk about at all.
MUCH LOVE,
Jackie.

P.S. I need a prom date?? SHIT.

Carcinogen Crush. AFI

Hola. Que Pasa?
Yeah.. enough of that. How are you. I'm stressing so I decided to blog. Got a lot to do this week mannnn. Haven't talked to someone in quite some time and its kinda bothering me.. but that could be because we have only one class together.. hopefully its not for another reason. And no, Roe, not you.. duh...
What is new? Not much actually.....
Hot physics guy is still very hot haha.

Friday went to Scarletts.. what else would you expect. I should upload pictures.. like.. alot.. haha. Sorry Roe I still owe you the shitty dodgeball pics I took. I'll get around to it as soon as I get around to wrapping your present... ahhhh..

Saturday everyone came here and raided my record collection.
And Kelly also stole like 10 of my cds. Ahh well.

I always log on here thinking I'm going to write something profound.. and then.. no. I die.

Hmm.. I'll make a list of songs to listen to..
1. Band of Horses- The Funeral
2. Keane- Atlantic
3. Jimi Hendrix- All Along the Watchtower
4. The Crystal Method- Weapons of Mass Distortion
5. Cobra Starship- My Moves are White (White Hot, That Is)
6.



Ahh.. I fucking suck. Julia just texted me. I borrowed her calculator last night and forgot to put it back in her purse. She had to borrow someone elses for her Physics test today, but all the equations were in hers.. she failed the one part. WHY DO I SUCK? God damn.

The World Has Its Shine (But I Would Drop It On A Dime). Cobra Starship

Mental Health Day.
I stayed home. Slept a while. It was nice. I thought alot. Thats the worst part about having free time. I tend to think too much. Mostly about whether decisions I made/have to make are/were right. Oye vey.
I woke up around 9:30. Ate some cheeriossss. Watched St. Elmo's Fire.

Billy: Jules, y'know, honey... this isn't real. You know what it is? It's St. Elmo's Fire. Electric flashes of light that appear in dark skies out of nowhere. Sailors would guide entire journeys by it, but the joke was on them... there was no fire. There wasn't even a St. Elmo. They made it up. They made it up because they thought they needed it to keep them going when times got tough, just like you're making up all of this. We're all going through this. It's our time at the edge.

What an awesome quote. Its too bad that, scientifically speaking, that entire speech is incorrect, but I'm willing to ignore that if you are.
Typical 80s teen movie. I love it.

Then after watching that, I went upstairs, and did some history homework while listening to the Frays album. Which by the way, I forgot how depressing that thing is. After like the first song its all downhill. But its okay because its amazing.

Bob called not long after that and picked me up. I went to my moms and did some more homework before watching Clerks.

Coroner: My only question is how did she come to have sex with the dead guy?
Dante Hicks: She thought it was me.
Coroner: What kind of convenience store do you run here?

Oh yes. This is a must see. Just two guys goofing off at a store, and the one bitches the whole time about how he was supposed to be off that day.

Randal Graves: Oh what, what's with you, man? You haven't said anything for like twenty minutes. What the hell's you're problem?
Dante Hicks: This life.
Randal Graves: This life?
Dante Hicks: Why do I have this life?
Randal Graves: Have some chips, you'll feel better.
Dante Hicks: I'm stuck in this pit, working for less than a slave wages. Working on my day off, the goddamn steel shutters are closed, I deal with every backward ass fuck on the planet. I smell like shoe polish. My ex-girlfriend is catatonic after fucking a dead guy. And my present girlfriend has suck 36 dicks.
Randal Graves: 37.

Oh well. my connection is lost. hopefully this will post?
Any way i have to get back to more homework. JOY!


Stay cool.
Jackiieeee.

Vienna. The Fray

Well. I did it. It was hard and it sucked, but I did it. For once I decided to put myself first. I just hope he can forgive me. I don't want it to be weird again, but believe me it would have been weirder if I had given in. I'm so sorry, but I just couldn't do it again.

I love my friends who have stood by my decision even though I look like a douchebag.