Crazy. Gnarls Barkley

"Its like ignorance is bliss.. and this place is fucking Disneyland."

Today I laid around for a while, and just happened to turn on a movie. It was called 'Manic' and it stars Joseph Gordon Levitt as an enraged teenager sent to a mental institution for troubled teens in order to help curb his anger. He meets an interesting cast of characters, who all seem normal enough, but each is plagued with some sort of psychological problem.. depression, mania, night terrors, or just a nasty penchant for fighting. It was very much in the style of 'One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest' in that the lead feels like an outsider, who does not belong in the outside world, and who sure as hell will not admit to belonging in an institution. The thing that I find striking is how easy it is to relate to the characters, regardless of how troubled they are. They just want a place to feel safe, to be listened to or understood. I think that that's truly what everyone wants. And although the film isn't necessarily a happy one, it is slightly hopeful, with its promise of freedom, pulling a motif out of Van Gogh's "Wheat Field with Crows."
I think everyone has a little bit of crazy in them. A bit of obsession, anger, fear. Oftentimes what we need is someone to listen. The characters in this film either open up or seem to fall apart, vanishing deeper into themselves. However, the ones that do reach out are the ones that recover. I really don't know why I'm writing this post. I will most likely never read it again, because even writing it makes me feel uncomfortable. But, if I do happen to, on a day when I'm feeling just a bit crazy, I hope to know to reach out to someone, a friend. It will really make all the difference in a world that is so ignorant of its own shortcomings.

Freedom.
Possibly my favorite scene from this movie involved an argument between two characters over the meaning of this painting. One, an artist, swore it was about freedom noting the birds flying away. The other, an agoraphobic manic depressive who is almost old enough to leave, but too scared to, notes that the road ends and that every work of art has borders, limiting freedom. We each can interpret things any way we desire, but the beauty of art is often looking for the brightness in something that seems dark.

So for those of you out there going through some tough times, know that you are understood by others. Get out, talk, live. Try and see the good in every situation. Don't try and fucking sugarcoat life, just take what you've been given and make the best of it. And find people who will help you to do so.

Us. Regina Spektor

I know I should have written sooner, but I've been very lazy lately. However, today I am feeling inspired enough to. Perhaps its because I have some nice new music playing, or maybe its that I want to avoid the Calculus studying that I should be doing instead. So I shall spend my last precious moments in Delco (for a few weeks that is) writing on this blog. I have been having a hard time keeping my mind off of my wonderful boyfriend. And I guess I should tell you why, aside from the fact that he is my boyfriend, that he has been on my mind so much.
Wednesday night we spent a good amount of time together, and at one point it began to turn a bit for the worse. I was freaking out and so was he, and so we had a very long talk (which lasted until 3 in the morning), during which he told me... he loved me. Its difficult for me to write let alone imagine. And I am pretty confident I feel exactly the same way, although bringing myself to say it might take some time. And so I've just spent some time pondering what those words even mean, and I still don't have a damn clue, but I know I feel it and it scares the shit out of me.

I have had a lovely break, notably because it was spent with my family and yes, I finally got to see Kevin and meet his new boyfriend, whom I adore. Also, Janine was there.. AWESOME. I love that girl so very much. She laughs at everything, and trails off the end of her laugh with a bitchy sigh that kind of makes you cringe. We just drove around and visited Janine's friend Jackie. Then we said goodbye, and parted ways, but not before making some temporary summer plans. Kevin is living in an apartment over summer in the city... and I will definitely be visiting him. Which brings me to tell you that I will most likely be working at the pool again this summer. I have decided that with my dad renting a shorehouse, and with plans to go and visit a bunch of school friends, I might as well work somewhere that is flexible.

I shall be returning to the berg soon, so I am going to go finish packing. :D

The After Life of the Party. Fall Out Boy

I feel pretty good. A lot of stress has been lifted off of my shoulders, and I really don't feel like writing too much truthfully, but I feel like it would be a nice use of my time today. I hate when I get all stream of conscious like, because I end up saying absolutely nothing. So perhaps I should make an outline as stupid as that might sound...

1) My life for the past week

2) Michelle's recent bloggings

3) Stupidness

4) Things to come

1) Okay. I have been incredibly stressed for the past week because of midterms. I honestly don't remember doing anything for the past week, aside from studying and being sick. Which was a wonderful surprise, yes, I really needed that on top of everything else. But all is well, because I studied harder than I ever have and I WRECKED my tests. It was amazing, and I'm so proud because it was really the first time that I ever stuck to a schedule, and now I know I can do it again and again.

Other than that, all I've done recently happened last night. Basically, I watched 5 hours of Grey's Anatomy, yes its my new obsession. Shannon has gotten me addicted. Damn her. I wonder if life is really like that past college, and potentially med school. Just killing eachother to make it, and pretty much dealing with wayyyyyy to many hormones. Considering its a TV show, its probably way overhyped, but oh well. Being an adult is going to be interesting.

After, we attended pancake palooza. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING, tastes better than pancakes at 1130 p.m. And then, after free pancakes, FREE bowling. WHAT? I love my school so much. Then after that I went to Rob's room and we had a nice time, however, I began to get frustrated because I've been sick and yucky. Oh well, hopefully I feel much better tonight.

2) Michelle. My god, you don't even know you are my hero. You talk about things so easily. I wish I was as brave as you sometimes. But I have been using my light, and I have now acknowleged that my boyfriend really does like me just the way I am. I don't have to change, and if I want to, its for ME, not for any other fucking critic. I love my body, and I'm proud of what I see when I look in the mirror. Sure, theres room for improvement, but every girl is beautiful just the way they are. If someone doesn't see all the light inside of you, then they don't deserve your time.

3) Okay, what else would this be about in college. For god sakes people control your fucking self! I understand you want to have a good time, but don't go around saying you NEED to drink because you HAVE to have a good time this weekend. WHAT IS WRONG HERE!? I have had great weekends, and I haven't drank in weeks! Come on. Okay well thats all I really have to say here, I'm just incredibly frustrated.

4) Ah, things to come. I have a couple days until break begins. So, tonight is Keri's surprise party that she probably already knows about, which will be fun. Still not feeling completely well, so I'm not sure if I will drink. I may be able to skype with Michelle today which would pretty much make my life. Tomorrow, I plan on relaxing. The rest of week will be spent studying and preparing for my last few midterms. Thursday shall be amazing, since my sister is coming to stay the night, and then drive me home Friday :D

As for now, I shall bid you adieu, because as I said earlier, I'm not even in a writing mood so its amazing I did this much.

Farewell.

Could it last?

Watch you work the room.

Only the Good Die Young.

Two girls in Norwood were struck by a train today. Its so devastating being away from home and being in your own little bubble, and suddenly realizing that there is a whole world out there that you've left behind. I could know those girls. They haven't released the names, but I could know them. And the third girl, she witnessed the whole thing.

My prayers are with them and their families.

I don't feel like writing much more right now...

Favorite.

I thought I would give you some things to listen to, think about, watch, etc.

"How we survive is what makes us who we are."- Survive by Rise Against

"I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."- Albert Einstein

"What do you do? You laugh. I'm not saying I don't cry, but in between, I laugh. And I realize how silly it is to take anything too seriously. Plus, I look forward to a good cry. It feels pretty good."- Sam, Garden State

Favorites

Actor: Matthew Gray Gubler

Actress: Natalie Portman

Alcohol: Rum? Possibly Tequila

Animal: Otter

Apple: Red Delicious

Artist: Claude Monet

Athlete: Natalie Coughlin

Aunt: Judy :D

Baby: Jack was adorable, and still is.

Ball: Snow?

Band: Muse

Beach: Dewey

Beer: Ew, but I guess Bud

Book: Tie, Brothers Karamazov and the Fountainhead

Boys Name: Maxwell

Brand: I'm not very picky.

Candy: Reese's

Car: My sister's Altima

Cartoon: Disney's The Princess and the Frog, currently.

Catalog: None really...

Cereal: Cheerios or Kashi Go Lean

Channel: Fuse is nice, when they lay off the rap.

Church: The Chapel where I work.

City: Philadelphia, but I haven't been anywhere really.

College: Muhlenberg, duh.

Cologne: Um, I guess Ralph Lauren?

Color: That perfect mix of blue and green, like the ocean.

Comedy: Movie? The Hangover, I guess. Comedian, either Dimitri Martin or Ed Bryne.

Costume: My brother was Duff Man once.

Country: I would love to travel to Ireland.

Cousin: Hm.. tough. Michelle, or Megan.

Day: Christmas, or Halloween.

Dinosaur: Sexy Rexy.

Dog: Sandy is a Labradoodle, but I have a soft spot for Pugles.

Electronic: iPod.

Flower: Daisy.

Food: Tough... I love Panera's tomato soup :D

Friend: Michelle, Julia, Kevin.

Fruit: Raspberries.

Game: Solitare.

Girls Name: I can't think of one at the moment...

Hobby: Listening to music and knitting.

Holiday: Christmas/Thanksgiving/Halloween are all amazing.

Ice Cream: Ben and Jerry's Oatmeal Cookie Crunch.

IM Service: Skype I guess?

Insect: Ladybug.

Jewelry: My bracelet from China and the one from Disney World that Michelle gave me.

Job: Chapel Assistant.

Juice: Currently, Cranberry is nice.

Kid: My little sisters and brother.

Lake: The one my family used to visit.

Language: I should say Spanish, but everyone loves the sound of French.

Magazine: Rollingstone.

Mall: King of Prussia is a bit too large, I find myself liking the Lehigh Valley Mall.

Man: Hm... boyfriend?

Meal: Wrap from Subconnection.

Meat: N/A.

Memory: WOW. Tough question. It depends on with whom. With Michelle, I'd say the boardwalk but that would be too obvious. Probably that time before going to Steph's when everyone was calling her wondering where we were, and we were right outside talking in her car. With Julia, taking candid pictures in her room for 3 hours. With Kevin, talking until 7 in the morning (this applies for Janine as well). With Anne, Jenn and Amanda, Kama Sutra. And with Rob, the morning we stayed up until 5 because we wanted to give Matt and Amanda some time alone, even though they were just asleep. We weren't even going out at this point, but it was still one of the greatest nights of my life. And Shannon, definitely the night we chatted in the GQ for hours.

Metal: Hm... Yttrium.

Milk: Chocolate currently.

Month: I'm a big October fan.

Mountain: Blue.

Movie: So many. Probably Moulin Rouge.

Number: Any multiple of 4... except 12.. not sure why.

Occupation: Something interesting, like researching the effects of drugs or music on the brain.

Ocean: I've only ever been to Atlantic, but I'd love to see the Pacific.

Park: The one by my house. I want to go on the swings.

Perfume: Ralph Lauren.

Pet: Sandy :D

Phone: My pantech is nice, and puts up with me constantly dropping it.

Phrase: "The early bird doesn't fall far from the tree." - I believe someone at O'Hara tried to coin this one.

Place: Muhlenberg.

Planet: I so loved Pluto before it was demoted.

Plant: That weird little bush that my parents planted that will never die.

President: None really. Washington I guess. RANDY HELM.

Quote: "Love all. Trust a few. Do wrong to none." - William Shakespeare.

Relative: My sister.

Restaurant: Bucca was very nice.

Rollercoaster: Something at Dorney. Their new one was amazing.

School: O'Hara.

Season: Autumn.

Shampoo: Aussie.

Shape: Trapezoid. A perfect balance of order and disorder.

Shirt: I am a huge fan of tees.

But I guess, I do like my plain black shirt.

Show: Criminal Minds.

Sibling: Aw. Julia. But everyone else is very close.

Smell: Not sure.

Soda: None. I don't care for soda.

Song: Currently, "Talons" by Bloc Party.

Sport: Swimming.

State: PA isn't so bad.

Station: 104.5 or 88.5

Stone: Ruby is my birth stone..

Store: Aeropostale, Heritage.

Street: CHEW!

Subject: I do love English.

Superhero: Superman.

Taste: I'm not sure.

Teacher: DR was probably the best professor I've ever had.

Team: I guess the Wings. I don't like very many sports teams

Tree: The one in my back yard, its a dogwood.

Truck: Um.. none?

Uncle: Mark. He's crazy.

Vacation: Senior Week '09

Vegetable: Broccoli.

Vehicle: Doesn't this apply to car and truck?

Weapon: None.

Weather: Rain is nice, but it makes me depressed. Ironic.

Website: currently, stumbleupon or textsfromlastnight.

Wine: Um, not sure.

Woman: Michelle or Julia.

Word: Love. Imagination.

Year: 2009 was a great one.

Zodiac: Cancer.

Zoo: Philadelphia.

Weightless. All Time Low

Okay. Yesterday was a bad day. I can say it. I was basically raped by my chemistry exam. It was pathetic. Sad part is I KNEW EVERYTHING. I just panicked and everyone agreed there was not enough time. But, God I did terribly. I basically broke down once I left class, and Anne saw me immediately and gave me a big hug and lied to me and said everyone felt the same way (haha even though she actually finished). And then Erik saw and asked if I was okay and then finally Rob. He walked over and tried to make me feel better, and I did because he is amazing.

My Bio lab teacher is awesome because she let everyone take a breather before we started lab and Anne tried to cheer me up by "shaking it out" like we do in yoga. And I actually felt amazing. I loved lab... it was strange.

But basically the point of this is that I am okay with doing terribly. I can make it up. And I will. And I have amazing friends. BAM.

Elaborate Lives. Adam Pascal and Heather Headley

I can't stop listening to Aida. I love it. I really wish I had been a part of it at O'Hara. But anyways, I am burning out fast. Very fast. I just need to stop looking at my damn calendar, but it seems like everything is creeping up on me so fast. The horrible part is that I know I can make it through, but I can't help but freak out about everything. And I hate complaining about everything because its annoying if I do really well. I'm just very stressed, and whenever I wake up in the morning, my heart starts racing because I think of all the things I have to do that day. I just need to learn to take things one at a time. And breathe.

My light is coming this weekend. I'm very glad, maybe it will get me out of this slump.

Cave. Mumford & Sons

Today is a good day.

I was in Spanish, and I looked over at Rob's homework, at the sample question we had to make up ourselves and I saw this:

"Le compraste los flores para tu novia?

Si, se los compre."

I'm a loser.

And I can't stop listening to weird folk music that the woman who works in the Chapel listens to.

But I am content.

Awake My Soul. Mumford & Sons

Hello there :D

I realize I haven't written in quite some time, but after talking my mother's ears off for an hour, she made the kind suggestion that I blog about something. Perhaps it was just her way of getting me off the phone, but I'd like to think that it was for my own good :) School is back in session, and although I am already extraordinarily anxious and nervous, just like I always am, I am very very excited for this year. I'm basically trying to immerse myself in everything and make my studies much more fun that I normally would perceive them to be. I really do miss DR's class, because it was a nice outlet for my creative thought, but I guess I just need to find a way to make the sciences a bit more creative. And what better way than Project Lab, or as my wonderful boyfriend referred to it, PLab. Each year, a professor picks a topic for the lab, and this year's is nanorust, some form of nanotechnology that is used for a variety of things, among them the control of arsenic in water supply. I think its pretty interesting, and I was also thinking about the applications of nanotechnology in my new love, neuroscience. I definitely want to go talk to Jeremy, but for fear of looking like an all too eager freshman I probably will wait a bit. But in the meantime, I'll keep cyberstalking Caroline's roommate and annoying her with questions on the subject. But hey, Caitlin is extremely nice and I even had dinner with her and Caroline last week. We discussed research and classes and everything basically involved with it. I just keep getting very excited about the future, I'm already picking what classes I want to take next semester, but I guess I should try and focus on surviving this one. Poo.

But anyways, other than class, what have I been up to? Well I am finally back on campus and have somewhat of a life. Friday night was wonderfully epic. I am kind of scared of myself though. I know that my family has a history of alcoholism, so I am very scared of alcohol, and I am veryyyyy careful. But sometimes I just want to have fun, and I don't know if that justifies it. I always feel very guilty but I do know my limits, and even if my friends who have never drank just joke around with me about it, sometimes it really hurts when they make fun of me. I was always against drinking unreasonably, but sometimes its fun in moderation. I can be sober one weekend, and drink the next or whatever, but I'm not going to be a crazy partier, I refuse. So, I just feel like an ass when my friends joke around with it because I know that its not exactly a great thing to do. I don't know, its hard to reconcile how I felt in the past about it with how I feel now. I refuse to turn into anyone in my family when it comes to drinking. But I don't know. I fucking hate hypocrites, so I really don't want to turn into one.

But yes, despite arguing with myself, I had a damn good time on Friday. The girls just cut loose a bit and I got a bit past tipsy, but all was well. Saturday morning, I felt guilty and the weather was terrible, so my SAD was kicking in. I called my mom and asked her to get me a light for light therapy because Michelle uses one and highly recommends one. I really just need to stop feeling shitty during the winter. I am human, not perfect, and I know this very well, yet I can't help but be my greatest critic. God only knows that I need the sun right now, but I find it difficult to want to go outside. I just talked to everyone, I even opened up to Amanda about it. I always feel so weird, like everyone's either going to judge me, or blow me off as "another depressed emotional teen." But its nice to know that someone actually listens, and that others know what I'm going through. I still haven't told Rob about it, but I almost did. I just really don't want him to have to worry about me or to take care of his crazy girlfriend. But I will eventually. Its not that I'm scared of opening up to him, its just that we haven't really reached that level too much. Although, in a step for the better, we did have a nice heart to heart on Saturday. On Saturday, he did something which I told him he could, because its his life and his decision and I didn't think it would bother me, but it just weirded me out. So I told him and we talked for awhile and he said he understood. I told him that I didn't want to worry him, but that it scared me a little, and he said he was glad we talked and that it wasn't weird. Its odd, because he keeps talking about it, and I don't know how I feel about it. He's obviously worried that he hurt me, but he shouldn't because I really care about him and thats why I was so uncomfortable.

But Saturday night was definitely wonderful :) The girls got together in Anne's room and read through some Kama Sutra, which was probably one of the funniest things I've ever been a part of. However, since I am the only one who has a boyfriend that actually goes here, the night was pretty much designed just to make fun of me, which I'm totally cool with. And about the whole "are we moving at the right pace thing" that keeps coming up, I've decided not to care, because I really really really like Rob and I know he likes me so its okay. I'm just trying to be comfortable with myself and I know he is very respectful which is awesome!

Sunday, I went out to breakfast with the girls, but then had to meet my dad for lunch. It was very nice and I went to Target with him. I really didn't do much aside from that, but I'd say it was a successful first week of school.

But this is getting kind of lengthy and I kind of forget where I was going with this. I just needed to write a wee bit. Well, I am going to go :)

Hasta luego!

Jackie.

Reason to Believe. Dashboard Confessional

Life is good. 2 exams down, 1 to go. And you know what, I think I'll be fine. And I get to relax for a whole month!

I am really really enjoying life despite its stressful moments. I'm so excited that I get to see everyone from home, although I really don't know what I'll be doing for an entire month. I need to go Christmas shopping.. and bake. Blah. I MISS MICHELLE. AND JOYUH! And everyone. The family. My friends. But its going to be terrible leaving the Berg for a whole month. Somehow, I'll survive though.

Basically, DR's final paper sucked whatever minimal ability I had to write out of me... blech.

well, hello there mental breakdown. haven't seen you in awhile.

Wishing Well. The Airborne Toxic Event

Copying the Copycat I guess.

Severe Boredom.... skipping F&W. Not much to do until I pick classes soooooo...

What is the relationship between you and the last person you kissed?
In a relationship :p

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
Yes.

Something that happened today that made you angry?
I have a Chemistry test and I just wanna go homeeeee.

What were you doing before this survey?
Reading this survey on Michelle's blog.

What are you looking forward to in the next few months?
BREAK!

Did the last guy/girl you kissed have any tattoos?
He once had an airbrush tattoo that said 'bad girl' :D

Do you think you could live with your best friend?
Hell yes. But it would be crazy and I would accomplish nothing haha.

Are you starting to realize anything?
Mhm.

Does seeing couples in love make you mad?
Occasionally. As long as they don't shove it in your face..

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Oh. No. haha.

Do you know a secret about your last ex that would embarrass them?
Two words: Secret. Life.

What are you doing tomorrow?
SLEEPING.

Who are you conversing with right now?
Just this survey.

What is something you disliked about your day?
CHEM.

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
A few people. It makes me happy!

Do you think you’ll have the same best friends a year from now?
Hopefully. I'm pretty certain about a few.

Do you think relationships are hard?
Yes.

Is life good?
Right now it is.

Do you open up to a lot of people?
I'm surprisingly open if you take the time to get to know me. I just come off shy, but I'm actually kind of crazy.

Whats the last thing you heard?
People next door.

Would you live with someone with out marrying them?
Probably.

Who was your last text from?
Rob.

Do you and this person have a good relationship?
Um. I hope so.

Have you ever gotten butterflies from someone?
Yes =D

Besides this, what are you doing right now?
Listening to some Muse. Thinking about my schedule and how many of my classes are already full.

Will you be up before 7AM tomorrow?
NOOOOOOOOOO.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
I was up in the middle of the night. But no.

What was the last thing you drank?
Water.

Did you have a dream last night?
Yes. About classes, naturally.

Did you get anything off your chest today?
No.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Megan.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
Meh.

Whats wrong?
CHEMMMMMMMM.

Do you like someone more than a friend right now?
Yes. Haha.

What does your 8th text say? From?
Haha um... "I'm sorry. Id kiss it and make it better but im far away =( but anywho, apparently we are going over now so whenever youre ready you can meet us =D"

Is there anyone you trust even though you should not?
Yes.

Relationship or hookup?
Relationship.

Few close friends or many acquaintances?
Few close friends.

How’s your heart lately?
Good.

Are you afraid of falling in love?
Terrified.

What are you wearing right now?
A blue spaghetti strap. Although its a bit cold.

Are you talking to someone while doing this?
Nah.

If a bear attacked you, would you know how to defend yourself?
Aren't you supposed to play dead?

How clean is your room?
Um... Well my part will sooooonnn be clean.

What are you excited for?
BREAKKK.

Things you first notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes typically.

Who woke you up this morning?
The sun.

What is your current mood?
Anxious.

What color shirt are you wearing?
Pale blue.

Are you happy right now?
Generally yes. At this moment, meh.

What were you doing at 11:00 last night?
:D

What are you doing tonight?
Dunno. Sleeping.

What have you done today?
Nothing yet.

Last thing you bought?
Dinner at Sandella's.

How much money do you have on you?
Not much. $10?

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Surely.

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
Um... yes. Entirely too long.

Are you going to be completely honest and open?
I do try, its difficult sometimes.

Do you drink beer?
Not often.

Who introduced you to your ex boyfriend or girlfriend?
Wow. Um. I have no clue.

Do you like pickles?
Yes. Just not the sweet ones.

What is your favorite kind of gum?
Stride. The yellow. It tastes like the zebra gum, but lasts longer than 10 seconds.

When you’re at the grocery store do you use the self checkout?
Fairly often.

Are you flexible?
After yoga.

What if the last person you kissed was kissing someone else right in front of you?
I'd be hurt.

Do you want to know the date of your death?
No.

Have you cuddled with someone you weren’t dating?

No.

Anyone you would like to get things straight with?
Not at the moment. Oh wait maybe.

Is there anyone you wouldn’t mind punching?
A few people, luckily I have wonderful self-control....

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a K?
Last name?

Is your hair naturally straight?
Yes.

Do you think love is overrated?
I'm trying not to.

What are you listening to?
Exogenesis: Part 1 (Overture) by Muse.

Do you eat breakfast daily?
Cheerios... and of course Saturday (Sunday) Breakfast.

Would you prefer a baby girl or boy?
Um... I'm not sure at the moment.

Last awkward moment?
Haha. I'm a generally awkward person.

The last person you kissed hates you. Why?
Poo... I don't know... I found his tickle spot maybe... muahhaha.

Ever dated anyone your best friend had already dated?
No?

Is green your favorite color?
TEAL.

Is there anyone you couldn’t live without?
Yes.

Do you think you can know everything about a person?
No.

Would you kiss someone you just met, just because they’re hot?
No.

If you got expelled from school, what school would you go to next?
Ursinus.

Have you hugged anyone in the last 24 hours?
Yes.

What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11?

Wish.

Do you like your cell phone?
Sort of. Although it doesn't come off that way every time I drop it, which is often.

Do you prefer to call or text?
Depends on the person... mostly text.

Who do you have texts from in your inbox?
Rob, Anne, God (Shannon), Julia, Michelle, Boris.

Have you kissed one person 20 times or more this year?
I think haha.

Does someone miss you?
Yes. And I miss them.

Do you wash your hair in the shower?
Yes.

Do you get annoyed by one word responses?
Often. Haha.

Whats you’re favorite sports teams?
Don't really have one.

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone a lot?
Yes.

Is the person you last texted single?

I hope not...

Does it bother you when you text somebody and they take forever to respond?
Yes. Haha. I'm a crazy fast responder normally. I feel creepy if the person doesn't reciprocate in a relatively quick manner.

Can you play the piano?
No.

Have you ever left or found a message in a bottle?
No.

Do you like Guitar Hero?
No.

Has a teacher ever been mad at you?
Haha. MESSA!

Do you have a box of old pictures?
I have a couple here in my dorm.

Where is one place in the world you want to go?
London.

What is the scariest movie?
Drag Me to HELL! Oh, Michelle.

Do you find smoking unattractive?
Not really. I'm an asthmatic.

In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
Jackets.

Do you get jealous easily?
I tryyyyy not to.

When people say “I don’t ever talk about anyone” do you believe it?
Meh.

Is there a girl you would do anything for?
Absolutely. 2 or 3.

Would you rather be in a relationship or play the field?
Relationship.

Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
No.

Would you date someone if they asked you right now?
Already am.

Have you ever in anyway been betrayed by someone you trust?
Yesssss.

Would you rather date someone older than you or younger?
Doesn't really make a difference. Unless its years... then older.

Do you remember who you liked on New Years?
Yes. >_<

Have you ever been around a person who was high?
HAHAHAHA. "So basically, we are all mimes, and we strive to reach nirvana as clowns. Then we are no longer silenced."

Are promises important to you?
Yes.

Is there a chance you will kiss the person you have feelings for?
Yes.

Did anything “cute” happen in this week?
Hahah. Yes.

When’s the last time you were surprised?
Um.. its been happening frequently.

What do you really want?
To be done with the Chemistry test.

Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
Surely.

Whose bed were you on last?
Mine.

Do you trust all of your friends?
Most of them.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
Yes.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?

Haha I've been in worse.

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
One.

Do you remember who you liked 3 months ago?
I didn't really know many people then.. haha MICHELLE!

Whenever You Breathe Out, I Breathe In (Positive Negative). Modest Mouse

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? There are no doors on my closet, but if I was home they would be closed so that the monsters wouldn't get me.

2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? Always do.

3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? In. However, I untuck them during the night.

4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No, but I've wanted to.

5. Do you like to use post-it notes? Yes. I have a hard time remembering things.

6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? I don't usually do, but my mom does.

7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? Probably a bear.

8. Do you have freckles? During summer.

9. Do you always smile for pictures? Yes. Or made a ridiculously hideous face.

10. What is your biggest pet peeve? I don't like the sound people make when they chew.

11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? All the time. I also make sure there is a pattern to when I step on cracks.

12. Have you ever peed in the woods? No.

13. What about pooped in the woods? No.

14. Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? All the time.

15. Do you chew your pens and pencils? No. But I put pens in my hair.

16. How many people have you slept with this week? Sexual sense, none.

17. What size is your bed? Tiny.

18. What is your Song of the week? "Walk on the Ocean" by Toad and the Wet Sprocket.

19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Occasionally.

20. Do you still watch cartoons? Occasionally.

21. Whats your least favorite movie? I don't quite remember what it was, but I know there was a guy on Mars with an alien and I was around 7 and couldn't appreciate that many red tones in once sitting.

22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? On the brown lawn.

23. What do you drink with dinner? Water.

24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? Imitation chicken nuggets are very tasty with barbeque sauce.

25. What is your favorite food? Currently the Vegetarian Wrap with hummus. ^_^

26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Rocky Horror, Pride and Prejudice, The Parent Trap, 10 Things.

27. Last person you kissed/kissed you? Rob.

28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? A brownie. I crossed the bridge to be a Junior and decided I hated it and quit.

29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? Probably not.

30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? Probably writing to Phil over summer.

31. Can you change the oil on a car? No.

32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? Never driven.

33. Ran out of gas? See above.

34. Favorite kind of sandwich? Vegetarian Wrap.

35 Best thing to eat for breakfast? Anything on Saturday (or Sunday) breakfast is suitable.

36. What is your usual bedtime? Lately, around 1.

37. Are you lazy? Incredibly.

38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? Belle, around 3-4 times.

39. What is your Chinese astrological sign? Um, sheep?

40. How many languages can you speak? 1 and a 5/8. English, 1/2 Spanish and maybe an eighth of Latin.

41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? I had one to Rolling Stone. It ran out but they keep sending me stuff.

42..Which are better legos or lincoln logs? Legos.

43. Are you stubborn? Not particularly.

44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman? Conan.

45. Ever watch soap operas? Once. Very overdramatic.

46. Afraid of heights? Yes. Not so much as of late, but yes.

47. Sing in the car? YES.

48. Dance in the shower? Sadly, I do. To the music in my head.

49. Dance in the car? Yes.

50. Ever used a gun? Once. I was seven haha. It was New Year's.

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? Senior portraits?

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? Some. The better ones not so much.

53. Is Christmas stressful? Depends on when you do your shopping. This year, probably.

54. Ever eat a pierogi? Mmmm. Cheese and potato.

55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Cherry.

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Doctor, Lawyer, Teacher, Rock star.

57. Do you believe in ghosts? Spirits.

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Yes.

59. Take a vitamin daily? E.

60. Wear slippers? Mhm.

61. Wear a bath robe? No.

62. What do you wear to bed? Tee shirt and shorts or sweats.

63. First concert? Dave Matthews Band.

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Target!

65. Nike or Adidas? Vans.

66.Cheetos Or Fritos? Munchos.

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Almonds.

68. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? Nope.

69. Ever take dance lessons? When I was 5. I was particularly skilled at the Macarena.

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Not in particular.

71. Can you curl your tongue? Sadly, no.

72. Ever won a spelling bee? Yes actually haha.

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Once or twice maybe. Kairos.

74. Own any record albums? A couple Bowie.

75. Own a record player? Yes.

76. Regularly burn incense? Used to. All of its at my house because we can't have fire in our dorms.

77. Ever been in love? Don't know. Don't think so yet.

78. Who would you like to see in concert? Muse.

79. What was the last concert you saw? Probably the Jonas Brothers... sigh...

80.Hot tea or cold tea? Medium?

81.Tea or coffee? Decaf tea.

82. Sugar or snickerdoodles? Snickerdoodles... or peanut butter chocolate chip cookies.

83.Can you swim well? Fairly decent.

84.Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yes.

85. Are you patient? Most of the time.

86. DJ or band, at a wedding? Hm... DJ with a good indie selection.

87.Ever won a contest? Yes.

88. Ever have plastic surgery? No.

89. Which are better black or green olives? Green.

90.Can you knit or crochet? I can knit to an extent.

91. Best room for a fireplace? Seegers?

92. Do you want to get married? Someday maybe.

93. If married, how long have you been married? N/A.

94. Who was your HS crush? Hot Pizza guy. or Hot Physics guy. I've had many.

95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? I used to.

96. Do you have kids? No.

97. Do you want kids? I want to adopt. Maybe have one of my own.

98. Whats your favorite color? That teal color of the ocean. I have a plan to paint my bathroom that color and then get a glass shower door so that I can imagine I'm swimming in the ocean when I'm showering.

99. Do you miss anyone right now? I miss a lot of people.

100. Did you watch, Next Great American Band on FOX? Actually I did. Johnny Reznik was kind of a jerk. It was saddening.